Topic: <Blue and Crimson Tears - Froggie's Poetry> <Last updated: September 3rd>

[Maki-chan]

Eeepiess, some very powerful despair there in that one, but also very eloquently written. A work of poetry can be very beautiful even if the subject matter is very dark. v_v *Huggles*

[Froggie chan]

*huggles*

thanks Mj and i guess in a sense it is like Hikaru in the second series. I dont want to go into details but i finally see what people mean by optimism going a long way though

[..:: Chibi Plum ::..]

Good good. now cheer up!!! or else i get mad.......people who are depressed all the time get on my nerves and i eventually get tired.sorry but i have to say this now before its too late.

[Froggie chan]

you probably hate me then... v_v

[Froggie chan]

*huggles back*

thanks Mj-chan. I dont really want to talk about this one much..

[Maki-chan]

Okies. *Huggles* ^__^

[Maki-chan]

Now, now, I doubt that she does Amy-chan. *Huggles* Depression can be contagious to a certain extent, but so can happiness, so try to hang out with people that are feeling good and do some things that you enjoy. Getting your mind off of regretful issues can help a lot. ^_^

[Froggie chan]

Im trying. Im trying so hard but people don’t always see that. My councillor even said its going to take a *long* time until I can be who im trying to become hopefully with their help and my friends support I can get there easier and quicker but my supports wearing think now. Im getting lost in myself and confused. My self-confidence is failing again and im losing the small part of optimism I have. This is going to take a long time.. but its getting harder and harder to maintain how far I get.

[Froggie chan]

*huggles back*
thankyou.

[Maki-chan]

There was another solution that I found to my own problems that are similar. As you know at a young age I found that I couldn't live as the person I was inside either, not without a great deal of hardship anyways. Until I was quite a bit older I never even realized that there were other people like me. For a while I thought that I was unique, truly totally alone. So I developed a new persona that the world found acceptable and hid my real one in a universe of my imagination. It's not something that I would recommend that anyone else do unless you're really desperate, but it is possible.

[Froggie chan]

I try to hide who i really am.. thats why i dont always seem distant because i dont feel like how im appearing.
I dont like this I do feel like im alone but i know im not. I feel like im taking everything for granted and that then makes me feel like im being self centred.. I just cant win.

[Froggie chan]

Mask.

My forgotten friend,
My saviour for all these years,
My cherished love,
Eye slits shaped only for me,
A space to breathe,
Whispered words, forgotten lies,
Its forever protection against the cold reality of truth.

My hidden friend,
My spiritless soul, my dying trust,
With no complaint from being my lie,
For long I have abandoned you,
Forsaken your friendship,
Left you to rot,
But now I place you over my face,
Your life is restored,
Welcome back my forever friend,
My mask.


Ive edited this a little but i still dont think it flows.. meh...

[Froggie chan]

Ok until a few moments ago i didnt even remember writing this *shrugs*
i do have the memory of a seive though ^_^;;

anyways enjoy.. well kinda it is depressing after all..

My Backstabber.

Drowned in your sorrow,
I try to show a brave face,
But inside I’m crumbling,
I’m fading away.

You broke my heart once,
And the pain is still there,
Even after all these years,
I long for your face.

You let my hand slip,
You let me fall,
Into the darkness,
Of forgotten hope,

I can hear your voice echoing,
Off these shadowed walls,
But you’re too far away,
We drifted apart.

I’m all alone now,
There’s no one to guide me,
I miss you I long for your touch,
My backstabber.

[Froggie chan]

Walk into this over dramatised hollywood scene,
Let death suffercate your cynical smile,
Miscoloured tiles underfoot,
White clean appearence now tingled with crimson,
Couldnt you hear my final cry,
Didnt you listen to my screamed out lie
Or were you too busy at 'work' again,
your wretched fingers caressing her flawless skin,
embraced in eachothers forbidden ectasy,
did i say something wrong?
something a feeble sorry wont solve,
am i just not as pretty as you say,
do you even care that im gone,
will you miss my worn smile,
like the moth to the flame i was drawn to you,
and like the flame you burnt away all my hope,
what do i care anymore?
What do i care when you couldnt hear my...
final...
fatal...
Scream...

[..:: Chibi Plum ::..]

woah.......that. was. good.......