I wanted to be your friend,
to stay by your side - the truthful one.
I wanted to always be there for you,
the shoulder you could cry on,
the friend waiting for your tears.
But time is harsh to us and changed me and my heart,
and as more tears fall i grow tired.
I am tried of waiting for you to smile honestly,
I am tired of you hiding behind a pretend mask,
I am tired with your negative attitude,
I am tired of feeling weighed down by it.
My tiredness is turning to annoyance,
and then from that to hatred.
I can no longer wait for you as i pretend behind my new mask.
You have changed,
and it annoys me that you are no loner who you once were - cheerful, happy.
I no longer want to be here...by your side.
You pointless depresssion ties me down and rips my wings,
but I want them to grow again....
so i can be free.