Author Topic: Some stuff I wrote (amusingly updated for the first time in over a year)  (Read 847 times)

Meilinrose

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Uh yeah...it looks like everyone's posted a peom in here, so I thought I might as well post one of mine up ^_^; Early warning - it sucks. Really, really sucks. I wrote the frst half (it's petty clear where it breaks) when I was feeling incredibly depressed one day, and then I decided it was too gloomy and self-centered e.t.c. so I stuck the second part on, addressing it to everyone who's ever felt like I did that day - basically saying that it'll be okay ^_^
Dark nights are dawning into blackened days
All your burdens gone their separate ways
Avert your eyes and feel the shame
A thousand others have done the same
Hide away all the trials that ail you
Don’t let them see how lonely they’ve made you
All of the whispers and all of the scars
And the gaping hole where your soul once was
Why should they shape you, force and create you?
Disguise, conform, reform and mistake you?
But don’t let a word escape from your lips
Or in your direction the soft blade slips
And slits the ties between you and your ‘friends’
The fake-fronted sluts who set all the trends
No, keep quiet ‘til the pain gets too much
And no one is taking the blame as such
Because it’s all your fault you’re now alone
You should have spoken, but you’re on your own
Four letters, it seems, is standard word-length
Bitter hatred is your final strength
Come on everyone; let’s hear three cheers
For our precious, enriching teenage years.

Scream aloud if you want to
Try to grasp what was once you
Scour away innocence’s stain
Where’s the fun without the pain?
Recall all memories forgot
And we’ll pray that there’s no God
No God to judge us for what we’ve begun
No God to punish us once we’ve won
No God to love us as He’s always done

This is not the end, and it never will be
Not while there’s something left that’s still ‘me’
Something not robbed from your aching heart
Core of your being, the innermost part
Open your eyes and then open them twice
See past what you thought was now your life
Think back to the child with dusty knees
Who smelt the sky and breathed the trees
Remember the light that shined inside you
Remember the innocence you opened your eyes to
Remember the days before darkness came
The child may be gone, but you are the same
Peel all these fears away from your brain
Feel your own self swim and surface again
The past comes to life as you grow every day
And no one can ever take that away
Whatever they do, hang onto that thought
And one day you’ll look back on the battles you fought
As you watch your children do exactly the same
And life comes full circle again and again
I was and I will be, you were and you shall be
That’s all we can ask for, and all that we can be.
« Last Edit: December 02, 2006, 05:06:35 PM by Meilinrose »



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Re: Crappy poem ^_^
« Reply #1 on: January 06, 2005, 06:56:55 PM »
that sucks O.o
thats amazing caz-chan!
unlike other poetry here (with some exceptions) it ends on a more optimistic positive note which makes this poem stand out ^_^
*huggles* welldone!

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Re: Crappy poem ^_^
« Reply #2 on: January 06, 2005, 07:48:34 PM »
*Huggles back* Thankies for your comments Amy! And thanks for even replying, I didn't think anyone would - I still think it kinda sucks ^_^;;;;



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Re: Crappy poem ^_^
« Reply #3 on: January 08, 2005, 02:32:03 PM »
it doesnt!

"The prince is never going to come, everyone knows that and maybe Sleeping Beauty's dead.."
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Uh...
« Reply #4 on: March 26, 2005, 02:09:47 PM »
I can do this too you know
Squeeze my brain until it twists
Knot my hair until it knits
Stripy socks and scarry arms
Blackened nails and magic charms
I've got some issues to work through
Be an individual just like you
Who's the most rebellious?
Which saddos are still religious?
Buying an underage pack of beers
Sticking safety pins through our ears
Enough chains and studs to stop a gun
Slave and master anyone?
Fighting over the boyfriend that someone's got
Comparing slits on wrists and God knows what
Dr Who scarf strangulation
Sneaking rum in registration
Counting days until suspension
How hardcore

Going out to see a load of
Drunken louts and body odour
Waking up, you're still not sober
Crying out against suppression
Drowned in bouts of fake depression
We're the whingy generation
Despising all the townie flirts
Whilst wearing little tartan skirts
And cleavage-rearing corset shirts
As much of a label as they ever were

Precocious little children bleating
Because their depression scars are weeping
Though their friends said it would soon stop bleeding
Make me want to give mankind a beating...


Some parts of it are kinda shite...this was whenI was getting all pissed off at a lot of stuff, but largely people who self-harm just to show off or get attention or something. And people who label themselves just as much as twnies do. hell, I was just in a really bad mood ^_^;



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Re: Uh...
« Reply #5 on: March 26, 2005, 03:37:11 PM »
not thats much coolness!

suits the mood i was in up town earlier >.<

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Some stuff I wrote
« Reply #6 on: May 14, 2005, 05:28:32 PM »
remember when we met
and i was dead inside
you were bright and you were strong
and behind you i could hide
i still don't know what i am
and where my old life went
it's never coming back
but i'll treasure what's still left
he saw you as a plaything
barbie to his ken
painted smile and plastic limbs
and hollow empty head
but even now you hound him
like without him you can't live
and i know you can't and never could
what's he got that i can't give?
you gave me my mind again
that fact i have to show
and you saved me from my nightmare
and you'll never even know
you have everything i want
you have everything i am
you're everything to me
and yet you're such a sham
everyone pretends to be mature
and for that i hate you all
you drink and smoke and fuck
and i'm still a little girl
we're really not that different
no one really is
cloth to naked flesh
drink to cracking lips
i love you and i hate you
and nothing's as it seems
and sometimes i feel no feeling
and i don't know what that means
i want the way you look
and i want the way you see
and i want to have your life
and i want you to be me
this envy and this love
have robbed me of my eyes
like the honey and the vinegar
they both attract the flies
i gave you all i had
lord knows that isn't much
and now you say you love her
romantically and such
you say you love me as a friend
and that i should feel no shame
and you love us both in different ways
but to me it's all the same
we're not how we used to be
and i doubt we'll be again
i've never had some friends before
i don't want this to end
you're accepted to loads of places
that i don't even know
no one would invite me
and i wouldn't want to go
you're beautiful but you're ruined
and now you've gone and changed
i tried to be a rainbow
but my colour's all been drained
i looked up to you
i don't think that you knew
to you last night was all a joke
you know nothing, do you?
i hope that you'll be happy
honestly i do
everything you've given me
i'm giving back to you
this is all so selfish
and means so little, although
i've spent two hours doing this
it doesn't really show

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I was going to mail this to Rosi but I decided that there would be no point and it might hurt her or something like that. It's the shittiest poem I've ever written, one of the most selfish, but I think it's the most honest. It doesn't say half of what I'm feeling (which is every emotion under the sun right now, not only am a broken wreck I've got a fucking hangover), and no one will understand any of what it references, but hopefully the confusion you get from reading this will reflect my head right now. I want to be alone because I don't think I can deal with people at the moment. Had I talent at writing poetry everything I'm saying at the moment would be in the poem rather than here but I don't care. If anyone actually replies to this I don't want you to say if you like it or not, or you think it's very cool and you can associate with it (or not) or whatever. Just tell me if you get some kind of message from it and what it means, because I don't know myself.



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Re: Some stuff I wrote
« Reply #7 on: May 14, 2005, 05:33:18 PM »
regection is the message i see behind it mixed with lonliness.


and i love it to bits! one of the best poems i have ever read and its so realistic.
god i wish i could write like that!!!

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Re: Some stuff I wrote
« Reply #8 on: May 16, 2005, 08:53:52 PM »
Thankies for reading...maybe it seems realistic because I wrote it at the point when I was feeling so down, I just wrote exactly what I felt and didn't try to dress it up in fancy words. I just mixed all the lines around to extend it, whcih is kinda weird but hey. So if you think that's decent writing...that's how I got it ^_^;



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Re: Some stuff I wrote
« Reply #9 on: May 17, 2005, 12:34:19 PM »
well its way better than anything i can come up with anyways!!

it really is mindblowing!

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Re: Some stuff I wrote
« Reply #10 on: May 18, 2005, 11:43:39 AM »
It's not shitty at all Caz-chan, there is a great deal of truth in what you've written there. It's a wonderful collection of ironies and contrasting concepts that accurately shows how many things in life, especially people, can have dual and opposing natures. Life isn't easy to understand, which is something that I think you do understand very well, so give yourself a little more credit. *Huggles* ^_^

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Re: Some stuff I wrote
« Reply #11 on: June 27, 2005, 07:25:33 PM »
I only just noticed that there was a new reply in this topic ^_^;; *Is also now officially an airhead* Thankies for your comments Mj-san, they mean a lot! I wouldn't say I 'understand' life, but I'm trying to understand both it and the people in it - just like everyone else I guess.



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Re: Some stuff I wrote
« Reply #12 on: December 02, 2006, 05:03:35 PM »
30 Elm Rd.

i wonder if your mother has asked you
why there is just one wine-glass in the sink
perhaps your neatened sheets gave her a clue
that it has been two weeks or more, i think
since we danced in your kitchen, the keenest
of loves; since i awoke entwined in
your arms, the half-dark, the greenest
of summers. i tore off my face, binding
it to your aqua-glazed mirror. peering
as i repainted my features (finding
the show such an honest sham). and nearing
muted golds, burgundy-swathed and blinding
prompting adhesion, searching for reason
to step past your door for one more season.

(Bright Eyes reference intentional. Written in September as I thought mine and David's relationship was in-keeping with the worst of clichés by dying with the Autumn after being so alive and incadescent in the Summer. We didn't split after all, but I wasn't to know.)
« Last Edit: December 02, 2006, 05:05:13 PM by Meilinrose »