Henheart's Universe
Main Discussion => The Poetry Corner => Topic started by: minimoon on April 12, 2005, 04:49:26 PM
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Here would be some of my poems... Please do not insult them as they reflect my feelings. And if you do I'll have to crush like the insect you are!!!!!!!!! >.<
My Haunting Love.
Love does not bring joy,
Love does not brinf happiness.
It brings sorrow,
Long days of lonliness.
My feelings haunt me,
Like spirits in my nightmares.
It is not welcome,
But it's okay, because no one cares.
How I have tried to lose this love.
But it does not go away.
It stays to torment my heart,
which was happy before that day.
I long for this love to be returned,
But it never will.
So instead it mocks me,
My feeble feelings unwanted still.
But do not pity me,
For this feeling shall be gone in the morn.
When you find my lifeless body,
Scared, .... tortured, ..... torn.
Heart broken, sadness.
I love you...
The words that hide away.
In the fragments of my broken heart.
You say you love her.
Another tear drops,
into the pool of sadness,
hidden inside me.
You hold her close.
So happy.
I force a smile,
Heart broken, sadness.
I want your happiness.
And yet I don't.
Envy takes over.
Envy that she has you.
I love you...
I long to utter these words to you.
But inside they stay locked away,
in the broken fragments of my heart.
I love you....
In my head.
You're always in my head.
I try to think of something else,
but it's no use.
Nothing can replace you.
Replace your picture,
burnt,
deep into the darkest recesses of my mind.
Never fading...
Never healing...
I feel alone without you.
For you are what I want.
Nothing else...
Just...
you.
But when Im with you,
It burns you deeper,
into my head.
The memory of your face.
Your warmth...
Your smile...
I can't take this heart break.
Stop following me,
Stop burning me.
Leavemy head...
Leave my memorie...
Leave me here...
alone and unloved....
I know, I know very depressive! ^_^;;;
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*huggles H-chan really tight but allowing her to breathe*
hun ive read some of these on the weekend and you can feel the personal asspect to them so strongly.
Its hard to get a personal response through within writing but all of these you have so well and to a really high standard!
i hope we can see some more of your poems ^_^
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thanks amy! ^_^;;
I just write down what I feel.
These are my thourghts on paper..... well in this case in the ether of the internet! XD
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fine!
dont look at my poems!
T_T
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i did!
i look at everyones i like to see everyones own styles ^_^
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i know!
*huggles amy*
thankies!
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I read them a while ago, I meant to reply ^_^;; Sowwies!
What I was going to say was pretty much the same as Amy - these are extremely emotional and personal poems, and I'm so glad you felt confident enough to share them *glomps* Please show more if you want to!
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thankies!
for that you get a glomp
*glomp*
I have another one but i cant be arsed to type it up right now!
:P
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type it up soon H-chan
id love to see more of your work!
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Here be two newish ones:
Unloved again#
Again,
You've found another love.
Again,
That love isn't for me.
Again,
Im left alone.
Again,
You do not see.
Forever,
I will be left alone.
Forever,
Cold inside.
Forever,
You will be blind.
Forever,
Will my love hide.
Broken for good
I hear the news,
and my heart breaks again.
The fragments of a once happy heart,
lying at my feet.
I try to glue the tiny peices back together,
But it's no good... my heart is lost forever.
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much sadness and coolness!!!
*huggles*
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thanks amy-chan
*huggles*
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Mee, sorries for not posting anything before H-chan, but I do think that all of your poems are wonderful. *Huggles* I guess that I've never pictured you as a very sad or depressed person, but I see that you have a lot of lonliness inside too H-chan. v_v
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uh-huh T_T
and remember H we are eachothers strength through thick and thin... you wrote something like that in my notebook at any rate
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yep amy-chan! ^_^
I am lonely but I prefer not to show it. Instead I am bubbly and hyperactive, the way I want to feel inside. ^_^;;
Heres another poem (slightly less depressive!) :
Shard of Hope
My once broken heart,
Is now hole again.
All the peices put back,
Except one.
The last shard of hope,
The one peice that just won't let go.
This peice I keep safe,
In my very soul.
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thats so cute and sweet and i wanna give that shard of heart a hug!
instead ill hug you =P
*huggles H*
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thanks amy-chan
*hugs*
Your the one who taught me to keep that shard of hope alive.
Thank you.
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Never let that hope burn out! ^_^
*huggles*
and anytime.. and remember you saved me once too.
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awwwwwwwwwwwww su!
*huggles*
Me knows, me knows su!
Here be new poems from h-chan su!
Lost emotions
I break the skin
Thinking of times gone by
The emotions I want to lose
Will lose
The mirror breaks
Shattered into peices
Matching my fragile my heart
My heart of stone
No one can penetrate the barrier
of hatred and sorrow
It protects me
Keeps me safe
As the last dropfalls
My heart heals
I chant
I will never love again
I will never love again...
Cheap perfume
She lay in a dark room
Fyull of fake passion
The smell of liquor
Sweat
and cheap perfume
She lay on the bed
Striped of her dignity
Pride
and clothes
Her only thoughts were
Why and when?
Why me
and
When will it end?
Fake love
I entice them in
With my playful banter
I draw them in in
With my chort cut skirt
They follow me
My sweet scent of passion
They fall for me
My blood covered dagger
Revenge
How sweet the revenge
How sweet the blood tastes
When the men that once loathed me
Now fall for my grace
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Some interesting ideas in those H-chan. At first a lot of bitterness and sadness, which reminds me a lot of how I was at your age. But after that you have a few ideas about turning the tables and getting revenge on those that have caused misery in the past. Don't get mad, get even. ^_^
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heres some more.
and thanks mj!
*hug*
They say
They,
They say I'll be alright.
Them,
Them with their snug lives.
I,
I don't think that anymore.
You
Your too wrapped up in your own depression.
You don't care about other's feelings.
I don't need you anymore.
I don't want you anymore.
I hate you, I love you
I love you.
You do not see my pain.
Your ignorance clouds your eyes.
You do not see my tears.
Because I make them fall on the inside.
Your oblivious to other's pain.
Just interested in your own.
You have none.
I hate you.
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Imaginary friend.
Don’t worry,
She doesn’t feel pain.
She’s not there.
She doesn’t exist.
She’s my imaginary friend.
It’s ok.
She will forever smile.
She can’t cry.
She has no emotions.
She’s my imaginary friend.
Never mind.
She isn’t really hurt.
She isn’t really bleeding.
She can’t feel it anyway.
She’s my imaginary friend.
Just my imaginary friend.
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They're all really good H-chan. ^__^ *Huggles*
The first three are short, but to the point, crisp and undiluted. I think that I have an idea of where those feelings are coming from and it's very understandable and you've expressed it very well. ^_^ The imaginary friend one is also something that I can really relate to myself, although my imaginary friend that I kept inside for so many years was really myself. There, in an imaginary universe she was safe and no one could hurt her. She could have the life that she wanted but could never have in the real world.
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I relate the imagainary friend to myself. It's the way I feel I've been treated by some people. Im glad your able to relate to my poems mj. Although some of them I would hope it is in a good way and not the way i do.
Anyway... here are some more...
Feeble friend
Thank you to my feeble friend,
Will your generosity never end?
Sorry for the sarcastic tone,
I can't help but moan.
All I did was try to forget,
No pain, no regret.
But you brought it flooding back,
Giving me a heart attack.
Just one night free of hate,
But I guess it's just too late.
You help so many feel alright,
But when will you see the light?
You can't help me, help me how?
I've been gone a long time now.
So thank you to my feeble friend.
When will your generosity end?
Smile on my face.
Im dying with a smile on my face.
I don't want you to recognise hate.
I don't want you to see my suffering.
Im dying with a smile on my face.
I don't want you to remember hate.
I don't want you to recall my suffering.
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Hmm, they both seem to express the same kind of feeling or event. The first one shows feelings towards the source of the pain or suffering, while the second one expresses the feeling inwardly, to ourselves.
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Thats exactly what their about. The first one is based on two people who have hurt me, while the second one is expressing how I want to be strong even when i am suffering.
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Shadows
My heart is pounding
I feel warm inside
I wave, I smile
But then I realise
Looking straight through me
You smile
The one your waiting for
It is'nt me
My heart breaks
Shadows consume me
Thank you
And so my life ends
Thank you, thank you
Please no tears shed
Thank you, thank you
I feel so much better off dead
Thank you, thank you
Inner child
Why do we grow up so fast?
Mature before we're mature
Since when did sex become a fashion?
Just the word would make us blush
Why does everyone have someone?
I never used to care
Since when do we like to get drunk?
Drink used to taste disgusting
Why do we think about someone to kiss?
Kissing used to make us retch
Since when do we stay up late?
At 10.00 we'd be shattered
So, why do we have to grow up so fast?
I want to be young and innocent again.
The solution to my pain
I write my poems
Sadness, anger, depression
I draw my pictures
Sadness, anger depression
I cry my tears
Sadness, anger, depression
I cause more pain
The one solution I thourght I'd never use
pain, pain, pain
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Ack, this poems have so much raw emotion put into them they really affect me. They really touch my heart somewhere.. i only wish i could help you more than i used too. I guess i just cant.. i wish id paided more attention..
*huggles H-chan*
amazing poetry... so real and truthful and dark..
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This ones more of a song...
Break down
The pain,
in my heart,
Hurts too much.
I don't want to start,
Again.
I thourght I had,
A real good friend,
But now thats lost,
Again
I can'r do this anymore.
I just want to break down
And start again.
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Lies.
Does anyone understand?
Their sympatheitc words, full of lies.
Support that isn't there.
Care when they don't care.
Smiles and hugs all around.
Reassuring pats on the back.
Hate in their eyes.
Swarming around like flies.
The way I feel.
Surrounded by so many.
But feeling so alone.
Smiling and laughing.
But wheeping and dying.
Warm and kind.
But cold and evil.
The way I feel.
Every day.
Every hour.
Every minute.
Since you hurt me.
Shadows.
The shadows that surround me,
Are made by you.
No one sees them.
Only I can.
When the strangle me.
The grip growing tighter.
I can't cope anymore.
So let them come.
Let the shadows consume me.
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Perpetual infactuation
Regardless you carry on,
Projected emotions,
Thrown upon the one concerned.
Countenance change,
Pain and fury placed there,
Sorrowful emotions suffocate the soul.
Go to the deuce,
I dare ejaculate,
Resolved in my state.
Perpetual is my anger.
Perpetual is my sagacity.
Perpetual is my infactuation.
Translation....
Forever love
Anyway you carry on.
Showing off your emotions,
Throwing them on my love.
Facial expressions change,
Pain and fury are on my face,
Sad emotions are killing my soul.
Go to hell,
I should shout out.
Firm in my decision.
Forever is my anger.
Forever is my courage.
Forever is my love.
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You've been quite prolific with your peoms in the last few days H-chan. There is so much emotion, so much darkness in all of it. But in the middle of all of the darkness swirling around her is a beautiful person. Someone that is very sensitive and has been hurt very badly. All around her are things that can hurt her again and she tries to back away from them. She longs for the days of childhood when things were uncomplicated by physical and emotional relationships. These things promise great happiness, but when denied cause equally great sadness. However, once we grow up we can never go back to the days of childhood. Indeed love is forever, but anger doesn't have to be. Experience, thought, wisdom and courage are the cures for anger.
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whoa... mj...i never knew you could be so deep... o.o
Um.. thanks?
And Im very sorry to say that my anger stays... im the kind of person who holds grudges... really badly. I can't help it... Im a very stuburn person.! ^^;;;
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Heres a song I recently wrote...
Envy
My heart beat pounding in my head,
You're there lying in my bed.
My dreams haunted by your smile,
My heart shards lying in a pile.
The times I'd see you passing by,
The sight of you always makes me cry.
Oh how I long to hold you tight,
To feel your pleasure day and night.
Envy and pain tears me apart,
Stunned at your misanthorpe art.
Why won't you let me near?
Oh how I long for you to hear...
The feelings caught up in my soul,
Will you fill my heart's hole?
Don't be alone anymore,
Let me walk through your door.
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Without pain and hurt we cannot experience happiness... we would not know what we feel without contrasting feelings and the conflict they cause... sorry something someone said a week or so again... bleh..
anyways I love the stalker poem H. Its different and i also like the old english style.. it sets your poems apart from alot of peoples! originality ^_^
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Again very well written, and I'm very sorry for taking so long to respond. v_v
I see a bitter thirst for freedom. Love and desire can tie us to another person and once a bond is established, a heart loses its freedom. If the love is not returned, the bond becomes like a prison not allowing us to seek love elsewhere. Instead the heart continues to desire the same person, until we find the key to that door. Only then can we walk through it and be free.
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Black Rabbit
Falling down the rabbit hole,
Charmed by your charms.
Who'd suspect an innocent rabbit,
They snuggle in your arms.
How vague I was to trust a rabbit,
Now look where I am!
Stuck down a rabbit hole,
Like a wolf corners a lamb.
"Wait for me!" I cry out loud,
Chasing you once again.
You snigger and run,
Oh how you love my pain.
Leading me from land to land,
Cold and hot, jungle and desert.
But I love to follow you,
No matter how much I hurt.
But when I catch you,
Your by her side.
The queen I now know is yours,
And my heart begins to slide.
"I love you" is all I think,
Youa dn your queen look happy.
I sink into eternal darkness,
Why can't I be happy.... Black rabbit?
Halloween on Christmas
I wish I could have halloween on christmas,
Like the story goes.
A romance like Jack and Sally's,
I'd like one of those.
Singing with the bogey man,
Chasing sandy claws.
I wish I could have halloween on christmas,
Let me break through those doors.
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Both are a different turn for you hayley, both are enterwined with a film and a story. Both themes explore feeling left out and alone.
In the second I see more of a longing of childhood, a recurring theme in your poems.
great work though! ^.^
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Petrified hearts
Won't someone rescue these broken hearts,
From the fragmented, tortured arts?
Hiding in the cavern of the soul.
This is how it takes its toll.
They shy away from their true feelings.
Not understanding their hearts true meanings.
Hiding in the caverns of the soul.
They dont know how to take control.
They do not want to lvoe again,
Knowing they'll get hurt, but not knowing when.
Hiding in the caverns of the soul,
Can't trust anyone to fill the hole.
Won't someone rescue these broken hearts,
From teh fragmented, tortured arts?
No longer wanting to hide in the shadows,
They need someone to chase away their crows.
Revive these petrified hearts
Tears
I still can't dry these tears,
Even after all these years.
The pain inside wont go away,
I still remember that fateful day.
Oh, how those tears fell,
Right down to the depths of hell.
My heart burned and turned to ice,
I can no longer feel so nice.
So as I weep for all you've done,
I'll think about how you've wept none.
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Hidden desires
Unwanted feelings fill my broken heart,
My head a mess of questions with no answers.
How can I know that this is real?
Not just made up to please my shattered soul?
I must hide them,
From the world.
From my friends.
From the one my desires reflect.
Hidden desires filling my mind.
Haunting my every waking moment.
Stalking my every dream.
How can I be so sure?
So scared of being hurt,
Or hurting my desired.
Crowds of broken hearted
This can not be.
How can I even think it?
Complicating an already dangerous situation.
My heart is the betrayer.
Treason in the highest.
Forgetting my place,
Among the crowds of broken hearted.
How could I dare cross the line?
Thinking of what I can not have.
Shattering my own selfish hopes.
I fall back into line.
Crushed again by harsh reality.
Back to darkness.
Among the crowds of broken hearted
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Tears of a thousand angels
Tears of a thousand angels,
Wash up on the shores of my soul.
Weeping into the shells,
That are my shattered heart, once hole.
Fly back to me on your wings of light,
Protect me from what I fear.
Make my troubles take flight,
I am safe when you are near.
Never leave my side,
Oh, protector of the forgotten ones.
On your wings, I will glide,
I will smile, when you sing your songs.
Tears of a thousand angels,
Wash up on the shores of my soul.
Filling the hearts wells,
Dry their tears, make me hole.
Illusions of the heart
You promise me,
things you can not control.
Stuck between my world and yours,
You said you'd make me hole.
You said you understood me,
Only one who cared.
I spilled my heart out for you,
Thought my feelings were shared.
Once released you changed your mind,
I was no use anymore.
Discarded like a dying rose,
You stole my heart, you stole my core.
Parasite Paradise
I feel your hands around my neck,
The grip grows tighter everyday.
You stole my heart,
The man I love.
You stole my sanity,
My best friends.
You will keep going until you have what you want.
The end,
My life is dead.
Realisation
Happy thoughts fill my head,
the first in a long time.
But of course they don't stick around,
Soon their gone, their dead.
I thought I'd have a good time,
With friends I've known for years.
But their you are again.
So much for fun, Im fine.
Leave me alone I won't let you win,
It's my life, go find your own.
But no one hears me anymore,
Not when realisation kicks in.
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I'm sorry that it's been so long since I've written any comments on any of these H-chan. v_v However, reading all of them at once lets me see a common theme to all of them - disillusionment. Starting with the Black Rabbit is an image of a cute, cuddly, bunny. However, like Alice you're led on a merry chase that ends in sorrow and lonliess after what appeared to be soft, warm comfort at first. The "caverns of the soul" is one of the best expression of the feeling of emptiness that I've ever seen. Caverns are barren, empty caves in the bowels of the Earth, where no sunlight ever shines and no life ever grows.
The Hidden Desires and Crowds of the Broken Hearted are very similar. I see someone, very sad, betrayed, disillusioned, and yearning to be healed. They reach out for their desire to be healed, but instead hold back for they cannot have what they yearn for. And thus they continue on, joining the countless others that have been hurt, only a face in the crowd, all but forgotten.
In the last set of four I see a sort of progression going on. Tears of a Thousand Angels starts out like Hidden Desires with a expression of desire for healing. However in the next poem the healing doesn't come, instead there is only more disappointment and disillusionment. The third one gets to the "rock bottom" stage, where everything is gone, there is nothing left to live for, however that doesn't mean that it's the end. In Realization, there's an answer, a desire to get away and leave despair behind. A ray of hope shines through as the person looks towards a new path to follow, leaving old ways behind. Hopefully I haven't gone on about this too much. ^_^;;
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No. I like to read your comments MJ. Your the only one who really understands the meanings behind them. You seem to see exactly what I felt when I wrote these. It's good to know that someone understand. Thank you! ^^
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*Huggles* ^_^ I try to be a good listener and hear what other people are saying to me and to the world in general. Feelings have a non-verbal language of their own so a translation from words to feeling has to be made. Part of what helps is that you express your feelings so well with the imagery of your words H-chan. ^_^
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Thank you MJ-chan!!!
*huggles*
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A nightmare world
Look around us,
What have we done?
The paradise from mother,
Destroyed by our fun.
The heaven we lived in,
No longer exists.
Clouded by corruption.
They are the evil mists.
Tears from my dry eyes,
Fall every day.
My home is dying,
The price we must pay.
We drained all the love,
And replaced it with hate.
There's nothing we can do now,
We are too late.
Torn between
My head is confused,
My heart is a mess.
My feelings abused,
I need a rest.
But I wont allow it,
Not matter how much I plead.
My soul won't quit,
Im starting to bleed.
I can't take the pain,
That's consuming my life.
What will I gain,
From cuts from my knife?
No matter how hard
I try, the pains there.
There is no hope shard,
Left for me to share.
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h, you are no amateur, bleh, ah forget it,
*burns the title*
there we go!!
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:P what ever!
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