Gonna be away for a bit...

[Diamond]

I'm not going to have much online time for a while, in fact, don't have much time now. This morning I nearly got booted from my AP classes (WTH did I do to get THAT email?!?!) and now I'm in all kinds of trouble. I can't keep up with my shcoolwork anymore, I'm well and truely pissed, and all my wonderful dreams of becoming a doctor have come crashing down.  So I'm posting here so that those who can the message through if asked will see: I'm not going to be online for a while because I am leaving school tonight. I'm done with it all. My marks have come crashing down around my ears for no apparent reason, my dad thinks I'm on drugs, my mum WANTS me to drop out anyway-so it's done. I told them I wasn't going back to public schools, they told me to go back anyway next year, because of my marks, and whose fault is it that I overetimated myself and didn't realize it until it was too late to change my class schedule? Not mine. They know I do #### ;like this. They should have shown me some reasons not to try to take 12 classes this year instead of just asking if I thought I could do it. So, goodbye for now. I don't know when this computer will be returned to the school, but it will be, so goodbye until I have one that is not on loan from some nutcase school where teachers won't answer emails and they don't offer help for people who are struggling to keep up.

I'll be working now, instead of attend school, and trying to break into voice acting and/or writing and manga art.

I'm sorry, but I can't do this to myself anymore. 12 years of work and I finally realized I wasn't meant for this path-what happened to the 3 year old girl who announced she wanted to be a doctor? She's gone, only a vague memory...

I'll of course try to pop in and keep things running here, and try to get to the various other forums I attend, but in the mean time it'll mostly be up to the mods and, once Wind_Y (Rose-chan) gets back on here, to her.

I'm so sorry everyone.

Goodbye for now.

[Jen]

*glomphuggles*
Diamond, I'm sorry to hear that online school didn't work out for you. I know things look bad right now, but don't give up on your dreams! There may still be a way to make them come true, even if you can't see it right now.

Seriously, at least consider going back to regular school next year. It is better to have at least a basic qualification than none at all, especially when trying to get a job. The more education you have, the more work options will be open to you in the future.

In the meantime, best of luck on finding a good job, and whatever happens, I wish you all the best. *huggles* Hope you'll be able to get back online more regularly at some point in the future.

[MJ-san]

Oh dear, this is soo awful Diamond-chan!! *Huggles* It's so hard to understand how things could go so badly so quickly like that. Please don't give up on your dream of being a doctor because of a setback like this. One thing that I learned form mathematics is that there are many different ways to solve a problem and get the right answer. The same is true here too, so if your current school isn't going work out, then try a different one and you should still be able to get to where you want to be going.

This certainly hasn't been a good week for HH's in general. After everything that happened at the other forum and just when I thought things couldn't get any worse now this too .... *cries* T_T

[Emily-chan!]

You know what you need? A holiday! And a hug.
 I... I dunno what to say. I have no bloody idea what to say. You've floored me. I'm speechless. Do you want an award for that? I'll send you one with my next package.
 *sigh* I want to be there for you. I want to be right beside you, because you're obviously hurting insanely right now.
 But you can't give up on this all togehter! I mean, it's been your dream since you were three! A dream that you've cherished for so many years is naturally going to have some hurdles and all that... Consider this a hurdle. One that you've smacked right into, and a s a result, you've fallen on your butt. But the idea is to stand back up again, brush yourself off and stomp on the hurdle for tripping you. If oyu're feeling really bad about it, get your friends to pound the guy who set the hurdles there into oblivion (which is where I come in, as soon as I can be sneaky enough to mail myself over to you.)
 Jen's right! You won't be able to get any fun jobs if you don't go back to school and, like, get some certficate to say you're smart! I mean, everybody here knows what a wonderful person you are (even if you are monitoring my brainwaves... ¬¬), but the silly world won't see that unless you stay in school.
 Anyway, I hate to see you so sad like this! It totally sucks.
 The next time you're sad, for pity's sake have mercy on your poor arch-nemesis and be sad here in Australia where she can access you, okay? ^^

[Meilinrose]

Diamond, it's Meilin - I didn't know of this forum before Mj-san sent me the link to this topic, so bear with me here ^_^;

I'll have to go with Nyao here - I dont know what to say. But no doubt a long and stupid post will be following this comment, so...good Lord, I'm so so sorry. I had no idea you were studying at online school, and to have the type of gitty-gits who won't help you when you need help...well.

BUT (Damn, that dramatic pause sounded so much better in my head)

Please, don't give up. In the kind of hellish world we live in, you NEED that itty-bitty piece of paper saying you can write your own name in order to get the jobs you want. You're a kind, intelligent girl and I think you'd make a wonderful doctor, the world needs doctors like Diamond-chan ^_^ Are there any more online schools you can apply to? Maybe you should consider public school (private school? I don't know, we mix the two words up over here so public means private and vice versa) again unless there was a seriously bad problem that ruled out all schools. I'm trying so hard not to lecture you on this because if you want to work then that'd be great for you, but the happiest and most fun (some would argue the most interesting) jobs go to those with the qualifications. Maybe you bit off more than you could chew this time round, but no way does that mean you can't handle a slightly more, dare I say, normal* workload!

Voice acting and art, they're both very difficult to break into and I'm sure you've heard this a thousand times before - it's like writing, authors have to have other jobs to support themselves before they have a chance to get discovered. So I hope that, if you stay in job instead of going back some form of school, it'll be a good job where you'll be happy (that's more important than anything else).

I don't know what's going on with your parents, but is there anyone else in your family who you can speak to about this? I wish I could say more on this subject, but I can't...

Diamond-chan, even if you never see this and even if we never speak again I will be thinking of you and praying for you. And I'll write to you for sure! You're a really good friend to me, and I don't want to lose you - and I want you to be happy and safe. I hope you will be v_v

[Diamond]

*sighs* Hey everyone. *huggles each in turn and vaguely clings to jen-chan with one arm whilst attempting to continue glimp of Emily and Meilin with other* I'm feeling a lot clearer now. Sorry for my version of an explosion there.  :unsure:

Anyway, I've decided to finish this year in shcool and then see how things go. I'm still upset, but not so much that I'm not thinking striaght. What I'm considering doing, if I stay in school after this year (Probably will, actually, if I can survive this) is saving my money for tuition to the Girls' School in the nearest city. In fact, I plan on doing a google search on it as soon as I finish typing this. ^_^

*huggles Emily* Was going to surprise you with this when I finally got around to sending another letter outr to you, but i'll tell you now instead: That trip to Australia I was telling you about was moved again. To July or August of this year!  So, even though I won't be able to drive (Have to have a license for over a year.  <_< ) at least I'll be there. *huggles*

Sorry again, evceryone. *bows*

[Emily-chan!]

No license? Well then, no Australia! XD.
 Nah, just kidding. *dies* Thankyou SO much for telling me that, I really did need something to cheer me up! Yay! Yay! Yay!
 Heeey, we can at least go and see the Drop-bears! There's a really nice nature reserve near Newcastle... *dies* Please say you'll stay in Newcastle for awhile. Oh yeah, and the beaches here are real beaches! The sand is yellow, the waves pummel the stupid (like me! I snapped my arm the other week, had a wardobe malfunction *and* got my butt kicked by the ocean in one day. Emily: 0, Nobby's Beach: 3!), and old, fat men wear speedos, and there's volleyball nets for you to stumble around in, as well as beautiful people to make you feel uglier by comparision!
 And... I'm happy that you're not giving up on school. ^^

[Diamond]

I'll try to get to Newcastle at least once one my trip. If I can't get there by my parentals or my grandparents driving me then maybe you could beg a drive over to Bligh Park and we could get there then. ^_^ And...Me in my swimmers? Damn I do have to lose weight before the Australia trip...Because I want to see one of those nice beaches I've heard so much about. ^_^ But anyway, since we don't need this anymore I'll lock it and once you've had a chance to see this I'll delete it. ^_^